I was hugging my pillow in the dark. I did no longer care about the tears, I Just hadn't wanted to close my eyes. I was fearing to see your face, to remember your smell, your smile, your touch, how you had wrapped me in your strong arms, where I felt protected with the warmth of your skin. Now? No, I had not wanted to stay in a world where you did not exist anymore, all of this because you had forgotten to teach me how to live here without you! So, please, wake me up from this nightmare!