mjay Meshack.

I was trapped in evil spirits that gave my life a false definition of who exactly i was,finally I'm free and hoping my voice will be heared.


Inspirational Not for children under 13.

#love #evilworks #fakelife #myroots #lifechanging #decisions #hurts #death #blessing #closure
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Every man has a story

As a boy growing up I didn't know anything about life and all anticipation,yeah right everyone goes through that,everything happens for a reason although we sometimes never get the chance to find the exact reasons.every man has a story and iam here to tell mine since I was born I grew up not knowing the family of my father's side nor hearing anything about them .

As a kid I was ignorant never even got it twist my mind I was young and naive all I wanted was cotton candies and to play that's it.

Hence I said every man has a sorty yo tell my dad had his story on why he never told or speak about his family to us,since my self and my siblings are kids it was taboo for us to ask him,it was going to feel like we put him on interrogation or being disrespectful I didn't want that

To say it,I never had any problem about not knowing his family to be honest with you,i felt completely the way i was I had my mother's side of wich I visited evertime when school close yet nothing about my dad's.

I guess you know what all means (sad) it simple meant I didn't know who I was and I was even not aware of it,now that iam grown up I ask my self what was he thinking hiding his family from us?did he even consider them as our blood? not to mention how this will have an impact in our lives as time goes.

Even today hever told us his full story for what iam definitely sure of, is that all man has a story and this is my story

I ask my self did my siblings have a thought of it?what did they do about it,even if they had a thought of it they wouldn't dare ask ,what was it though! what did they do to him for us to suffer the quency quences I mean we where innocent for God's sake how ever if they were fighting or something it really had nothing to do with us we really deserved to grow up know them.why is even my mom not saying anything about them either

Oh no,she also doesn't know them where on earth is this Man Coming from?

I don't know my roots the foundation of my surname is something I don't have,I just didn't know who iam.it is said "if you don't know where you from you won't know where you're going" it felt like iam walking in a darkness not knowing how far to go and not even sure of how far from where I've been,all I will have to do is keep going

How can you go not knowing where you are going?

He kept this secret, hiding us from knowing his family almost half of my life.over 20years of my life not knowing who iam exactly.did he even realizes that there are some of the things that will need family hence I had to lay my feets at my granny's house for my blessing to be unlocked and be known as a grand son .

But then he decided otherwise about it

I my self will never deny my child to know his family regardless of the issues we might have I will never hind my son from being with his family that would be selfish of me as a father.

As I continue to grow up I met this man who told me a story remember every man has a story I was with a neighborhood gent doing job hunting,well we had no transport coming back home

We decided we rather take a walk than to stand still waiting for transport ,if it comes it will get us along the way .

If we had a transport on time I guess I was going to miss out the story that just made sense 8years later.

The man whom I forgot his name it was my first time seing him ,if you ask me I can't even recall nor remember most of the things we talked about except the one,we're are talking about now here is the guys telling me that I have a surname problem that's why my things aren't going well.

What ???

in my mind I was asking my self what did this guy smoke? Nothing made sense because I knew my surname at somepoint I didn't exactly know who I was because of I don't know my family but still that doesn't make any sense to me.

I asked him why do you say I have a surname problem he just said i can see.

As always I was ignorant never got bothered to ask my father to tell me his story I didn't see anything wrong about everything

My mother always wanted everything to be in place even if she didn't say anything to us but she was busy pushing my dad to go back look for his family it took her many year but because she is a woman she never gave up,she kept trying and trying She indeed was "I'm imbhokodo "

2013 if correct my father came to his senses he finally listened to my mom and went home to look for his family.

I still rember it was December, to be honest with you I personally thought he will never comeback home again, when he gets there lucky he found his family just where he left them but as you know Leaving home for morethan 30years you can't expect all things to be the same the environment changes and so on .

He got to spend festive for the first time after 3decades that must be something else I know surely they had alot to talk about and catch ups sad enough he didn't find them all some are now passed on to another life .


Well he cameback after a week atleast now things are getting to place,well for a chance they started to interact calling each other checking up .that's what family do though

If it was not for my mom this wouldn't have happen she really played her part she really deserve the world

2014 my father's family come to see us ,oh the feeling I can't even express I felt born again I got strength.

We got to know each other meeting my cousins,uncles and aunt you name them.

The sad part about not knowing your family or who you are it's really a knock out .

I have been living very closed to my family but since we don't know each other it was a shame Iam just glad I never dated my own .

We found out that my aunt lives in siyabuswa in mpumalanga it's about 40kilos - 50kilos ,worst one of my cousin lives In kwamhlanga and for the fact that kwamhkanga it's just 15kilos from my home it was really embarrassing

It was not my fault anyway and as a man I won't judge nor blame my father. He has his story to tell

I now know my family actually Iknow half of them I hope I will know all of them in no time.


In the beginning I mentioned that if you don't know your roots it's more like not knowing where you going and who you are. Since we finally found my father's side we been talking and knowing each other.

We found out that we using a wrong surname not actually wrong but. Now it makes sense I remember that guy I met 8years ago who told me that my things are held not going right because of my surname.

Now it makes sense!!

The surname iam currently using is the surname I wasn't supposed to use or put in my identity document.the surname belongs to my father's mother my grand mother,I should have used my grandfather's surname of wich my father was also supposed to use it because it's his. Now he said Because when he leaves home he had no identity book when going to apply for a identity book he meet the woman who's surname was same as my grandmother's,that how we ended up with a mnisi surname

I personally believe since iknw my surname even when I'm not switching to it,knowing about it where it's originate it's a relief for me it's all about knowing who you are.if you see it in a different way well i respect you point of view but as for me iam happy how I see it .

The saddest part about all this while thing even today I don't know my grandfather it is said he died long time ago,

Lucky enough I got to meet my grandmother i had to touch her I mean the feeling was onto of everything

It hurts me and will forever hurt me that my grand mother only heared my voice she never saw me because she was blind.i wish God could have waited before he takes her sight she really missed a chance to see her 6 grand children's I can imagine what was going through her heart when she first hear our voices .

Kept asking myself self same question over and over again if my father's path was due first none of us would have stand a chance to meet his family or God would have come up with other plans

It's a blessing he is still alive even today

My granny was the only Pilar left.

her time was due,she then left us I was greatful to meet her before God takes her even if she was blind and could not see us I believe God granted her atleast an opportunity to meet us

Iknow she's at peace. My her soul rest easy

when it comes to my mother who made all this possible.

She also left us in 2016 after she made sure we know who we are,again God gave her a chance to get all this right before she takes her what a phenomenal woman she was "power"

May she continue rest easy

Hence we finally found each other but still something is missing we don't have consistency

We barely talk we keep on losing contact and reconnecting speaking for my self I don't know about how is it from my siblings as this is my story I'll definitely talk about my self.

My parent tried to do all what they have to get us win and it was worth it .it is up to us now to make sure we don't lose the trace of our family

But then to me its still feels the same iknow them but I don't really know the actual thing about them

I still think I should go visit a place where my father was born , hopefully that will give me peace

Because what I have now it's more like having a tea without sugar.,I can't even have a long conversation with any of them it's even hard to start one.we just ended a year without talking on a phone. We all on Facebook but I can't show any conversation we had this year ,there's no spark something is still wrong and we have to fix it our selves ,but no one is standing up to it are we all the same kind who are ignorant?

I personally think we are end if we don't break that chain we will never get to know one another the way we are supposed to I wish I can do something about it,but I am one person who is self centered alot I'm more of a loner so this doesn't affect me.

But what scares me is that it will definitely affect my kid in the future they will also continue to live like my but not knowing much about them .well I keep telling my self if they even don't have much about them but they will meet them and know about them.

Aslong as they will forever involved with my siblings as their closed father's side of the family that is everything to them. As for me I will try to work things out I rather try than giving up without trying ...

I want meet his neighborhoodvhave to meet other remaining family,and get and opportunity to ask them questions as much as I want get to know the history

Get to learn about the surname I should be using

Get to know each and every single meaning about my culture.

A man has a story to tell thats why iam telling you mine I wish my father can tell the whole story after what we went through I deserve to know every single word but that's up to him

If you are out there you don't know who you really are just like I didn't know who I was ,never stop searching for answers.

It takes time sometimes you might not even find any trace that's not what we want we want progress .

It took me over 20years to know who I am,and even today at the age of 32 I have not yet known my self fully but there is progress I can say I know my self 80%now if I can put it I percentage.

You have to be patient iknow its really hard and specially when your succes Is on hold its really a pain in the ass.

Keep praying and and ask God to lead you believe me you will get all answers .

Fortunate are all those who never get to experience such I hope you also learnt something from this and will help you ensure that you don't put your kids in such position if you where about to do things that leads to leave no trace about you

  • Every man has a story and my dad has his story and this is my story .....

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